CHILDHOOD TRAUMA

by NEIGHBOURHOOD VOID

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This album is a collection of both happy and crappy experiences. We can learn from our depressive states of learnt hopelessness and show those who taught us to feel hopeless, those who shaped us as self deprecating & depressive individuals that we are more than our upbringing. We can prove them wrong.

Thank you to my friends/family who have helped me along the way.
Thank you to Aaron, Mikey and other friends who helped with group vocals.

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released February 20, 2017

Written & recorded by: NEIGHBOURHOOD VOID
Mixed & Mastered by: Calum Newton

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Track Name: Chemical Imbalance
Serotonin
Dopamine
You'll always get the best of me
So i cant help but constantly
Just question my own sanity again, oh

Serotonin
Dopamine
Crystal Methamphetamine
You tore apart what was left in me
When you tore apart my family again

Serotonin
Dopamine
Crystal methamphetamine
You tore apart and left with me
A chemical imbalance in my brain
In my brain
A chemical imbalance in my brain
Track Name: Bedroom Blues
I've got a bad case
Of the bedroom blues
I've got a bad case
Of the bedroom blues
Cause no drugs that i take
can do the things you do x2

(Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh) x4

I've got a bad case
Of the bedroom blues
Im always thinking
When will i see you
Cause no drugs that i take
Could ever pull me through

(Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh) x4

I've got a bad case
Track Name: Depersonalization
Most days for me feel like a dream
I often cant find reality
Did I overdose on tv?
Was it the panic attack when I smoked that weed?

I used to lock myself inside my room
Cause I was scared of what my brain would do
I used to lock myself inside my brain
I never thought id feel this way again
Track Name: DON'T WANNA GO OUTSIDE
I
Dont wanna go outside
Cause I
Would rather run and hide
Cause I
Dont wanna lose my mind
And I
No longer wanna die

I
Dont wanna go insane
But I
I think I lost my brain
And why
Does my mother cry?
Cause I
I wanna die I wanna die again

Dont wanna go outside
x4
Track Name: don't know where to go (again)
Well i'm running back and forth
To escape what i've created
And i'm running back and forward
Cause i'm scared of what i'm made of
And I don't know where to go again
Don't know where to again
And my friends
Are all stoned
And my friends
Are all gone
And I don't know where to go again
Don't know where to go again
Don't know where to go again
Don't know where to go again my friend

Im falling through the floor
When i'm intoxicated
And i'm sorry I don't wanna talk
When I feel dissociated
But i've got no where to go again
Got no where to go again
And my friends
Are all stoned
And my friends
Are all gone
And I don't know where to go again
Don't know where to go again my friend

And my heart has more holes
Than the shoes beneath my feet
And my heart is more broken
Then the words I cant complete
And I don't know where to go again
Don't know where to go again

Running back and forth
To escape what i've created
And i'm running back and forth
Cause i'm scared of what i'm made of
And i've got nowhere to go again
Got not nowhere to go again
And my friends
Are all stoned
And my friends
Are all gone
And I don't know where to go again
I don't know where to go again my friend
Track Name: RUN AWAY JUNKIE
Im falling through the cracks in your brain that i've created
I tell myself im doing fine but i still feel outdated
When i was young our only hope were hotels that were vacant
And when i was younger suicide was all i contemplated

Run run run run runaway
Run run run run runaway
x4

The outskirts of town
Couldn't hold you down
It drives me insane
It drives me insane
Cause you're fading out
Within my brain
Cause you push poison
Into your veins

Run run run run runaway
Run run run run runaway
x4
Track Name: All Strung Out
Well i'm on the side of the gutter
And i'm feeling better than ever
Remembering days
We would sleep in motels
But mostly the back of the car
Well i'm passed out now on the gutter
Im all strung out just like my mother
And i've never felt worse
Cause my body is cursed
With the gathering urge to throw up

And I wanna feel empty forever
All strung out just like my mother
Throw my brain in the trash
Cause i don't know where its at
And I wanna feel empty forever

And I wish i could show you my love
But you leaving me is all I think of
Cause everyones left
Leaving me so empty
And taking a slice of my brain
Im changing but I cant keep up
I cant eat cause ill just throw up
No doctor can fix me
No ones ever helped me
Or made me truly feel any better
So I guess ill just die on the gutter
All strung out just like my mother
When my bloods filled with liquor
My feelings fade quicker
And I swear I could never feel better

And I wanna feel empty forever
All strung out just like my mother
Throw my brain in the trash
Cause i don't know where its at
And I wanna feel empty forever

And i'm changing myself for the better
It starts on this parking lot gutter
I'm not going straight
Im just fixing my brain
Cause i'm tired of feeling like my mother
Track Name: Down
I would have jumped in front of the car if it hadn't slowed down
Cause i had nothing when I felt you slipping through my hands
Its like my world tipped upside down
You always lift me when i'm down
But lately you just bring me down
Guess i deserve it anyway
Cause i'm a piece of shit with no direction in my life
Its like i'm too scared to commit
I'd kill myself if it wasn't such an effort

Cause you just don't like me when i'm sober
And i don't like myself when i am sober
And you just don't give a shit when i am sober
So run away from me while you still can
Run away from me while you still can
Run away from me while were still sane
Track Name: 7 DAY WEEKEND
Spent my days drifting away on a goon sack and Rothie Blues
With nothing left to do
Trade my soul for a cigarette
Or a can of booze
Id trade my soul for you

Its a seven day weekend
With no money to spend
Its a seven day weekend
Its never gonna end

Sitting out the back with nothing left to do nothing left to say
Got no clue of what the day is cause nothing changes
Trade my soul for a cigarette or a can of booze
Cause we've got nothing left to do

Its a seven day weekend
With no money to spend
Its a seven day weekend
Its never gonna end x2